The Foundation of my HOPE

When I was first diagnosed with brain cancer, glioblastoma Multiforme, I most likely would have curled up into a ball and given up if it was not for my personal relationship with Jesus Christ. He is the foundation for my strength, hope, joy and peace while going through the trials of brain cancer.

I know "religion" is a sensitive topic for many people. I am not the type of person to "preach" at people, but on my web page I just have to share what I feel has kept me going and who gives me the hope about my future! Below I share what my personal beliefs are about my salvation and relationship with God. If you would like to talk or pray with me about it, please email me at or give me a call in Oregon at 541-273-0334. Your salvation and peace means a lot to me!

Jesus my Savior

I am not a professional for talking about God, but I will share with you what my heart knows from reading God’s Word the Bible; and what I know from my personal experience with God what he has done in my life. I will try to explain simply what I believe in God and the miracles and life he has given me out of mercy. A gift that is open to you and all.

I will start at the beginning of time. God created the heavens and earth, and all on it. God created "humans" in his image. We have not only our human bodies, but our souls. God loves us and wants to be with us. God is perfect, sinless and loving. God can not be in the presence of sin.

God made us with "free choice", people that can make decisions on our own. With that blessing of being born with free choice, unfortunately we are also born with our natural nature of sin. As you know, even people who "want" to be good, often react out with our natural nature which includes anger, selfishness, impatience, etc. We know "murder" is sinful, but also just simple things such as lying and being judgmental is sinful. Since God is "perfect" He can not be in the presence of sin. But He had a plan to bring us to Him.

When he created us in the beginning He had a plan to come to earth himself as human; to be on earth with us for a given time, to die for us on the cross. Jesus Christ was God on earth in human form showing us how to live a life of love; then he "chose" to die on the cross for us. When Jesus was sacrificed and died on the cross, three days later he came back to life and went back into heaven. It was a sacrifice for us, that his blood could cover our sin. So now, if we believe in Jesus Christ, and turn to him, and ask him to forgive us of our sinful nature, then His blood covers our sin, God forgives us. Then, we can be in connection with God.

We are "connected" with God by the "Holy Spirit". When we ask God to be our savior and forgive us of our sinful nature, God gives us a gift of his "Holy Spirit". God's spirit comes and lives in our hearts/souls. That is how we become connected with God. When "humans" here on earth die (we all end up dying one day), we can either be in God's presence for an eternal life in heaven, or not be with God (hell).

Our human bodies only have a given amount of time on earth, but our souls live eternal. If we have sin in our hearts, we can not be with God forever. If we turn to Jesus Christ, ask forgiveness and accept Him as savior, Jesus' blood covers our sin and God forgives us. At that point, we are connected to God by the Holy Spirit, and we then can live an eternal life with God.

I am not the best at putting this into words. All I can tell you is what the Bible says, and what I know is true from my own life. Before I "gave" my self to God and believed in Jesus, I was empty. My soul searched for a connection with God, but I could not find it. It was only through Jesus Christ, through God's forgiveness of my sinful nature, did I finally "feel" whole and complete and content.

It was because I began to see God work through me with the power of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit empowers us to produce "fruits of the spirit" - Galatians 5:22-25 "The fruit of the Spirit is: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control."

There are SO MANY times fighting cancer that naturally I would respond anger, fear, anxiety, selfishness, etc. But through God's Spirit, I am able to "see" and "do" life as Jesus' example, with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no way I could have done that alone without God’s strength working through me.

Once we accept Jesus Christ as our savior, I am not saying that you will never "sin" again and that life will always be joyful. Believe me, at times I can still react in anger, fear, etc. But my "goal" in life, is to love other people the way God does. And each time I turn to God for the strength, He always is there to give me strength to go beyond what I could do myself. I love the verse Joshua 1:9 "Be strong and courageous, do not be terrified, for the Lord your God will be with your wherever you go."

All I know personally is that life was empty without being "connected" with God. It was when I turned to Jesus Christ, God, the Holy Spirit (all three forms of God) - was I given life! That is when I felt "whole" and alive. I believe God is calling out to you. God wants to "be connected" and spend an eternal life with you and everyone.

But some peoples "eyes" don't see God. Often we humans get caught up in one of the blessing God gave us, "free choice". But unfortunately that "free choice" often leads us to selfish sin. Often, for many, it takes a serious life threatening experience (for me brain tumor!) to open our eyes and really search for that connection with God. It's often during that life threatening experience, that we notice we are empty inside, without that connection with God. Then we search and search and our eyes begin to "see" Jesus Christ as our savior.

We can have a "personal relationship" with Jesus Christ. We can pray to God and gain strength through Him daily, hourly, per minute. It would be wonderful if you read God's word, the Bible. Where He tells us all we need to know, to have that personal relationship with God/Jesus/Holy Spirit.

I would say, the "book" in the Bible that would be best to start with, is the book of "John", where it tells how Jesus came to earth to sacrifice for us. Jesus also gives examples how to love others and live a full life. I love the verse John 15:5, when Jesus was standing within a vineyard talking to his followers and Jesus looked around at the grape vines and said (using a good analogy), "I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing."

I truly believe I can "do nothing" without the strength of God. I need to be connected to God, like a branch to the vine, through Jesus, so that I can "bear much fruit" and love others the way God does!!! Here are some Bible verses that speak out to my heart.

My Salvation in Jesus Christ

Romans 3:23 "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."

Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."

1 Timothy 2:5 "For there is one God and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus."

Romans 5:8 “But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”

Jesus and God are one, Jesus told us in – John 10:30 "I and my Father are One." John 14:9 "He who has seen Me has seen the Father." John 14:6 "No ones comes to the Father expect through Me."

Acts 3:19 "Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be clotted out."

John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that Whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life."

John 1:12 "Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God."

Romans 10:9 "If you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved."

John 5:24 "I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life."

1John 4:9-10 "This is how God showed His love among us. He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through Him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins."

PEACE I get from God is indescribable:

Phil 4:4-7 Rejoice in the Lord always, I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Matthew 11:28-29 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

COMFORT knowing God has a plan:

Consider it pure joy, my brother, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the test of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1:2

Yet, O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hands. Isaiah 64:8

Reassurance knowing I AM NEVER ALONE:

Be Strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not be in want
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me besides quiet water, He restores my soul.
He Guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
Your rod and staff, then comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Psalm 23:1-4

MY FUTURE will be greater than I’ve ever dreamed of:

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
John 3:16

No eyes has seen, no ears has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him.
1 Corinthians 2:9

In God, I will never give up HOPE:

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth, He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:28-31